A Meditation

Tick tick tick tick tick tick tick… I hear the timer and decide it should be shoved under a pillow. I do that then think, what if I don’t hear it go off in 20 minutes? I take the chance.
It’s been a while since I sat cross-legged with my butt against a pillow and my palms facing up. Thumb and third finger together sloped on the knees. I settle. Doing my best to clear my thoughts. It takes time.

Before long I’m revolving images of black, purple, some green. My conscious creeps in. I have to slam the door. I’m after stillness. The zen perhaps.

I try to focus on my breathing. I invite love. I ask for a white light to cleanse my soul. All of a sudden I’m enveloped with a quiet. Slowly my head tilts back. I can’t stop it. I let it be. I take another deep breath. I continue.

It could have been moments. I’m not sure. I am charged with a blue ray up and down my body. I feel lifted.

The egg timer rattles a ding. Although suffocated I hear it. My eyes open.

I see different.

I see clearly.