Inside the Heart

The shadow knows.

Heard that expression growing up.

Today I drew “Shadow” in my Wild Woman Mystery Cards deck.

Underneath it all, in the darkest part of my soul, or anybody’s soul for that matter - what does it all mean? How do we truly unleash who and what we are?
This got me mulling over my notes from last week’s Creative Mornings talk.

Inside guest speaker, Jessica Hische, billed as Letterer, Type Designer and Crazy Cat Lady she said, “I do whatever I feel like doing, most of the time.”

Shouldn’t we all?
Passion comes along with doing what makes our heart sing. I know this. Most may. But are we doing it?

I feel like shit today. Woke up with what I knew to be the stomach flu. Caved in. Missed my favourite two classes of the year: Typography and Motion.

That really sucked.

The universe decided I needed to look inside today.

So I am.

When asked recently what my dream job would be I responded truthfully.

“To be creative. I am an artist.”
I love to write. Take pictures. Edit video. 
My hope is to inspire. Years ago I became a photojournalist, so I could do something to make a difference.

Colour and design make my soul sing. So does music, forward thinking and living outside the box.

These days I’m learning all the tools: Illustrator, Photoshop, Final Cut Pro X, Motion, InDesign, HTML, CSS3, jQuery, etc. etc.

I know I’m different. Who cares to read my blog?

Some. Thank you to those that do. I hope I inspire you in some way.

There’s two projects that have been festering about in my psyche for a while: People, Purpose and Power, and Flab for Food.

Time now to embed these ideas. To do something.

Am sure I wasn’t the only one that could relate to what Jon Tan said during his guest stage discussion with Jessica.

“Keep playing and keep failing. It just costs time.”

What’s time if we can’t live doing what we enjoy?

Time now to stop thinking about what the world needs and instead focus on what you need.
By unleashing what truly lies inside your heart.

The rest of the world will benefit.

My Awesome Shit Club Pitch!

Good thing I wasn’t first. My nerves were shot when I got there. Dry mouth even. I was like sixth. Huge relief. Well sort of.

I felt prepared. But I wasn’t sure I was rehearsed - enough.

It’s an awesome gang of folks that pitch in $50 each to make the Awesome Shit Club happen. Stemming from a group that meets once a week on Wednesdays - Ideas Victoria.

I’d attended the last one. Incredible.

You get so inspired by what other people think. By what other people do and by the questions people ask.

Such an opportunity for motivation and cross-pollination.

My pitch came after the break. People, Purpose and Power!
Nothing came out like I planned. I’d attempted a conversation of discussion to my mother ahead of time as the rehearsal. 
I felt I had got good reception, a lot of encouraging tweets and words of support came after. Along with some pointed questions.

I didn’t win the $700. A documentary filmmaker did. Her pitch was Us and Them. Super happy for her.

“You never hear someone say it’s a bad idea,” I heard from a fellow pitcher when we were all done.

So true.

It’s also what you learn from what you think you know.

All I could think of when I left was THANK YOU!